1. I haven't followed any of my New Year's Resolutions. In fact, I'm even less motivated than I was before. I haven't worked on anything in ages and instead I spend countless hours in bed listening to music, FaceTiming and going on Tumblr. Somehow need to find a way to regain motivation and start working hard again.
2. At the same time, Ivy Day was yesterday and so many people were rejected from their top schools. A ton of people who actually deserve to go to those schools were waitlisted or rejected. It makes me question everything because yeah, sometimes hard work doesn't pay off and it just doesn't make sense to me. Bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people and life doesn't make sense and karma doesn't work.
3. I am still way too attached to social media and my iPhone. What is the point in constantly refreshing my Twitter feed or Instagram every fifteen minutes? Do I need to be so informed about the lives of other people? I could be doing better things with my life. This needs to not take over my life.
4. I am also still way too attached to people. The same problems I've been having six months ago are still happening. I get stuck in a cycle of passiveness which just ends in my repeatedly getting upset. My friends are good people and good friends but sometimes crappy friends to me. Conflicted. So conflicted. I've been thinking about it for the past hour and I still can't figure it out.
5. I'm plateauing when it comes to Jezie because I haven't been putting in the effort or work. Need to come up with the next big thing or else it's just going to go downhill. Nothing comes easy. Complete lack of motivation.
6. My complete lack of motivation is actually one of my biggest struggles right now. I don't end up doing 90% of the things I say I am going to do. I'm happier when I'm productive but right now I'm too lazy to do anything besides stay in bed.
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