Some favorites.

New Year's Festivities.

And so far, 2013 has been an amazing year.

Seventeenth Birthday at Of Monsters and Men.

My life in pictures, documentation of senior year.

For some reason I just love the way photographs taken with disposable cameras look. Like my friend Victoria said, they make everyone look like they're having so much more fun. Regardless, one of my walls is now covered with memories and I am content with life.

Stop ruining love by wanting it so bad.

These past few days have been filled with coughing and insomnia. Tonight, for some reason, I revisited this blog and it brought back happy memories. Reading through these posts helped me remember the purpose of
creating this blogspot - to document my life and thoughts. I'm making it a goal to consistently update because it's nice to look back and see the things I've done in the past.

Recently, I've become too caught up in ideas and the future again. The idea of being famous, the idea of being successful, the idea of love. Chasing after people who could care less about me and losing focus on the things that matter. On the bright side, I've since regained perspective and motivation and will now work hard on Jezie Jewelry (and school, somewhat), hang out with my friends, attend as many concerts as possible, attempt to actually do the things on my to do lists and enjoy my senior year.

New Year's Resolutions.

1. Become better at time management, stop procrastinating and stay focused.
2. Eat healthier, exercise more and sleep earlier.
3. Be more organized and on top of things.
4. Become more independent and stop getting so attached.
5. Be more positive in general.
6. Be a better person and friend.
7. Stop overreacting to everything.
8. Be more creative.
9. Take more risks.
10. Go with the flow and enjoy life.

Sorry but I'll be going places better than you ever will.

What are you afraid of?

Today consisted of college apps, almost car accidents to the Field of Terror, people with masks and chainsaws, sugar dusted funnel cake, a lost token, flashing lights and Lunchables for dinner.

Haven't felt this carefree and happy in a while, probably because I released all of my pent up stress from screaming but now it's back to college apps.

We can’t define what it means to be human, but we know it when we feel it.

                   - Andre Halaw (Thanks Karen.)

Most of the time, I view emotions as a weakness.  Life would be easier without feelings and far less painful. I forget that this is what makes us humans.

It's the people who you don't expect and who don't expect it themselves. It is almost 1:00 am and I need to start my homework but I can't stop thinking about it all. No one understands anyone else completely and I'm sure I don't understand myself fully either. It was just one casual assignment so why did it affect me so much.

I'm not sure why I put up walls. I'm not sure if I even have walls. I don't know why I can't talk about my feelings or why the thought of hugging or holding hands with someone sometimes makes me uncomfortable as well. 

In the end, the college I go to won't matter. My high school grades really won't matter. As said by Karen, the past and future are just concepts and the only thing we know is the present. 

And I said, I'm lonely. And I don't like it. I don't like being alone. But we live alone, we die alone. Everything else is just an illusion.  

For the barefoot explorers and late night chocolate eaters.

Photo by Nick Gerber.

Always inspired by people. I just want a life where I can experience everything. Listen to live music, star gaze, travel, learn, meet people and the list goes on. The only thing is though, when things overwhelm me, I just ignore them. This is probably the reason why I am the most skilled procrastinator. Small steps.